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I wonder if there is any hope left some, there isnt much for me.... whats this a tear, whats wrong with me it seems all i do is sit in this part on the swing, I wish my mom were here she would help me, my problems at school everywere i go. even if all the problems disappered then i would be invisable no one probably know i exsist, when will the pain end when will i be free when mill this end, I would end it now if I wanted meby..... "Sayomi??.. were are you o there you are are you ok?" "I will be fine" I decide to go home so I get up and walk away. I only have i guess one person that kind of well she does care about me, other then mom, kikoharu.. she is the ONLY person I trust, my dad on the other hand her is ushly off with a girl friend or at work no time for me, and my sister on the other hand she is perfect, seems dosnt knoow that i am even in the house and is moving out. School is a different, it is a hell hole just like the rest of the word seems, I count more bruses then howmany well I donno just alot. "Sayomi? I am... ummm you are supposto go home umm people have been looking for you, well I have been. I am woried about you. please tell me whats wrong or tell me how I can help you?" "Just if you wanna do something to help me, leave me alone.. everyone alce does... for the mot part......... I am sorry I dont want you to get any more hurt then I have made you already, so you better leave of every thing will be black for you to." "Sayomi . I I I wont I will always be here for you " "....ok well see you tomorrow ? "bye"
Next day
School great hey! whats that I ahve to help her! "leave her alone" I pulled her off one of thepoor girl but by accedent i pulled her hair " sorry" the next thing I know " Ahhhh" I feel the ground and see black, I try to move "help" everyone is gone. I get up slowly I can see now a little I have cuts all over I look back at the place were i layer and there is some brocken class. "hey you?" great I look up and see one of the boys from school. "are you ok?" "yea---.." "I can herlp you" " no I am fine I give a small smile" "ok dont hurt your self" Well it is to late for that I walk down the halway everyone is staring at me, I give a small smile and keep going "Sayomi come here right noe!" the princible great " this young laydy say that you were pulling her hair and bulling her the smoring. come to the office this once"
1 hour later
" you are expilled for one week Sayomi, I am sure you perence wont be vreey" I would berlly see but I manged to get to my house as i slowly step in the house I hear something so I lissen " Ahhh Sayomi is going to be in so much trubble when she comes home getting expilled for bulling she wont see out side for along time. I cant belive this, I droped everything and ran out side, I ran and ran ran till I came to a small stone bridge. " no one cares" I lay down shivering, she snow is so could, I am wet blody, mudy no one ever care. I see a sharp piece of glass and hold it in my hands. " I can end it all now, there will be no more pain. I hold it to my neck. "dont please sayomi DONT!" I feel something take me hand. "why did you stop me, my life dosnt matter to anyone." "yes you do! to me... I love you" " I look at him in the eyes "Kay?. I havnt seen you for so long, you wanted to help me today but i said no., I didnt know it was you. but ir dosnt matter" " I--... promis me you wont ever think of doing that again not with me on this earth. promise?" I feel so warm in his arms, I am happy "i Love you t-....." I feel light and go into a ddep sleep" "Sayomi!!"
At hospital
Huh I onpen my eyes half way " Kay??" were is he " I am right here" "what happened" you passed you from to much loss og blood, and depreession and all" his eyes filled with tears. " I thought you were going be gone forever." I smile "I'll be fine..... I have you"
